I have started, stopped and rewritten this post countless times and just don't know exactly how to begin. I'm not a great writer and I tend to ramble but I have something to share so bear with me.
I'm not really sure why people visit this space out in blogland but according to the stats, you people are out there so I know I'm not just writing this on a blank page that only my family and friends read, heck, some of my friends don't even know I have a blog. Anyway, I have gone back and forth on deleting this or keeping it, what to share here and what I shouldn't share and to be honest, why I even have this thing.
Here's the thing, our time is very limited on this Earth and now that I have a kid (and another on the way) I am looking at where I spend my time and why. I want my time to mean something. To do something.
I haven't really shared much about my faith or social issues here. I haven't really hidden it either, just not very outspoken about it. There's a long list of reasons that have kept me from speaking out, some of which include: fear of offending someone, getting too personal, automatically having a label on me, my life being put on a pedestal of sorts because people can think you're supposed to be perfect and then letting those people down because it's easy to see my many imperfections, fear of saying or doing something that reflects poorly on my faith and being judged accordingly, not having the answer to a question ... the list goes on and on.
One of the main things that has kept me from this is the fact that I'm not the best Christian. I have messed up. I've done wrong. I've sinned. I've turned my back on God for a season. I can't quote the Bible and don't have answers to a gazillion questions people have about Christianity. With all those faults, I'm obviously no "Super-Christian" so why bother putting it out there when others are much better at it than me? There are so many Christian women out there with inspiring blogs so I should just leave it to the pros right?
Well, it made sense to me. That is, until I started thinking about other areas of my life. I don't post photos of my family because I think I'm the best photographer and others can learn from me. I do it because I like the picture or the story it tells about this stage of our life. Same with cooking. I'm no chef and I make things that I don't even want to eat sometimes, but that doesn't keep me from posting food pictures or recipes. These are just parts of my life. So why do I have to be perfect to get a little personal and talk about my beliefs?
That's just silly.
I mean, hello, Jesus is a much bigger part of my life than cooking, weekend fun and all the other nonsense I talk about.
I feel like I should put all this out there to help make sense of what I'm about to share. You see, the last few months I have felt called to do something. To use my voice and bring awareness to an issue. I have wrestled with talking about it here for two reasons. One, it's not wrapped in a pretty package or will leave you with warm fuzzies when you open it like some causes out there. Two, I didn't want to educate myself on the issue because it hurts to my core.
The organization I'm talking about it Love146. It's a nonprofit with a goal to abolish child sex slavery. I'll go more into my journey with Love146 some other time, this post is long enough. But, I will say that I feel called to do something about it. I'm not entirely sure what that is at this time and am relying on God to show me how He wants to use me to fight this war.
So today, on my 30th birthday - whoa! old lady alert! - I want to use my voice and share this video with you. You may have seen this already, several bloggers I know went to Blog Sugar where they talked about this.
Ok, if you've made is this far, way to go! All I ask on my birthday is that you take a few minutes and watch this video.
Love146 History from LOVE146 on Vimeo.
Thank you for sticking with me today getting through my longest post ever of my thought ramblings.